So… I am now working 40 hours (at least) a week at my full time job, picking up bookkeeping clients, training on Sundays, riding my guys (Bella + Skipper) as much as possible, trying to schedule another lesson, and to top it all off I’m not going to see J two nights a week alongside now having a two hour class on Thursdays. Y’all. I’m already tired. This of course doesn’t account for any other various appointments that pop up or my actual “downtime.”
But although I’m tired, I am also pumped. I’ve honestly just been missing this fire and this drive. There’s a lot I have going on that scares the crap out of me, but if it scares you then you might be headed in the right direction? I might be lying to myself but whatever, I’m still going for it. I could easily sit here and quote motivational quotes at you…
“What if I fall?”
Oh but my darling,
What if you fly?”
― Erin Hanson
Stop worrying about what can go wrong, and get excited about what can go right.
She stood in the storm, and when the wind did not blow her way, she adjusted her sails. – Elizabeth Edwards
“May the space
between where I
am and where I
want to be
I’ll stop (although maybe I should start posting inspirational quotes that have absolutely no riding references, it’s amazing what can fit a random situation), and now I’ll move on. I’m excited and I’m focused. I’m picking up extra work to pay for lessons and shows. I’m aware that I have extra stuff I want to buy for Bella and myself for showing. I’m aware that I have goals of moving this summer, that personally I want to be a more intentful person. I don’t want to just do whatever, I want to be intenful as I do whatever it is that I’m up to.
I have to admit that it’s thrilling to be back here and feeling like I can take on the world, but I’m so glad I have J in my life. He kindly reminded me to take a step back and ensure that I can actually schedule everything I want to do because part of my life is my relationship and he’s entirely correct that it’s not fair to let that slide just to fit something else onto my plate. While I’m dead set on making this all work and getting back down to what I’ve always been passionate about (even if I needed a break from it) I’m also dead set on keeping it to a manageable level. So I’m officially working on making my 2018 calendar. As much of a headache as it is, I’ve really missed having my calendar and I’m really hoping that I can just go ahead and pencil in some shows I’d like to attend.
We’ll see how that goes, especially with how much I’m going to have going on. Will keep y’all updated. In the meantime, find yourself an inspirational quote and make it your mantra for the day.